Trying to keep hope alive

[scared n alone]

He did go through with the vasectomy. He said he didn't want any more kids because "why would I want to give my kids more people to fight with" He doesn't talk to his siblings. I on the other hand am one of 7 and ADORE my family. It was one of the things that he loved about me in HS. I used to joke and say he was dating my brothers. Looking back, that wasn't such a joke...he was looking for a family. I also believe the vacsetomy may have played a mental breakdown for him.

He sees the kids every tuesday and friday overnight. He tries to scare me into more time and that the courts will say i don't let him see them enough. If it's one good thing, the kids see him now more than ever. In the last 10 months, i figured he had been gone over 140 days out of 302 because of rehersals and shows. That's in addition to his "real" job that is m-f 8-4. He is inbetween shows now so he has nothing but time in the little duplex to sit with the kids. Even if he was a home, he would be practicing the piano for the next show.

I have sat with my attorney. I do feel a bit stronger after i speak with him.

Thanks for caring!