your not suppose to do anything physical with him yet silly!!!
do not, please please please go any farther than you did last night. please do not sleep with him. then your enabling him to be a cake eater. I know you probably really enjoyed it, and it felt good, but try to get on track. And, what are you going to do next time when he tries that again? when you say no, he's going to be mad. But, your just going to have to tell him that in both of your interests it is best to not be physical unless you have both decided to try and work on the M again.
and if for some reason he says he wants to??? you know that he's not well yet, and he will probably still hide things, so you need to figure out what he needs to be doing, for how long, before you will consider it. counseling (with a good counselor) is a must IMHO. His history is too long, and this character is too messed up to not have help.
how are you feeling today now after all that happened?
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."