Moving on with my life!

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It is freezing here! What is happening? Good thing we only have to go out a few times today.

Soooo....after I made my above post exh started texting again about something random we talked about earlier. I went about my evening and then he sent one saying how much he wished he was here with us. So I let him come over for awhile before baby went to bed. It was so fun. She loved it and so did I. After awhile he helped me put her to sleep and I thought he was going to go. We watched part of a movie and then started messing around! I stopped after a bit and told him exwives don't make good booty calls and I would seriously freak out if I heard something in a few weeks that he was with someone else. He said he wasn't. Don't worry..I don't put a ton of faith in what he says yet. So messed around some more and I stopped and told him not yet. He was ok with it. He said he enjoyed just being here with us. We just hung out and then he left a few hours later.

Sort of mad at myself. I thought I was so much stronger and doing better. Any little crumb he throws I take.

My head knows nothing has changed. He has a long way to go, but UGGHHHHHH! I so wanted to let it all go.