Wife came over tonight and picked up Christmas things. She was upset because of how miserable I am making her in not signing her petition and she just wants it over as soon as possible. We talked for two hours mostly her trying to convince me that we should just do it with out lawyers now. I think she is afraid she will have to pay alimony.
She said that she wished she had a boyfriend so that she had a good reason to do what she is doing but she just doesn't love me anymore and she never will. If we go to court she will just end up hating me. I told her that if we went to retrovaille and nothing changed then we would sit down split things up. She said that there was no way she would go to the weekend and she did not feel comfortable staying in a hotel with me. I said ok but I can't with good conscience sign off on divorce without trying to work on marriage. So we left it at that and I told her we would go to mediation sometime after the end of the year. She shed a few tears but I think it had more to do with the money she could lose.
Ten minutes after she left she called and said she would go to retrovaille if I would agree not to use lawyers after the weekend. So January 8th we are going to go if we can get in.
I know it is against db practice to let her know that I am still interested in saving the M but she knows that with being Catholic I will never sign off on a divorce. 5 months of being dark and no change. Will retrovaile help? Probably not but going dark did nothing and time for some action either way.
"Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well" Matthew 6:33
