h is in mlc, now threatening divorce...

[lost1234]

gnosis,

yes, i have been reading LL's thread, about 1/2 way through. been reading a novel at night b4 bed...only real break for me right now sorry!

in the last 4 days h has turned me upside down and inside out emotionally...some is my fault...however i can say i honestly wasnt expectant of anything. its the back and forth of what he says, to the extreme opposite that gets me.literally just rips me apart.

his family has been outspoken to him, the holidays are coming and EVERY day I face our 2 little girls, who want their dad,but are becoming more and more distant with him...breaks my heart.tears falling as i am typing. breaks my heart! how do i stop it??

im sorry if this sounds like a pity party, but this is what continually goes through my head...our children. in a way he is failing them by not being here anymore and then i feel as if im failing them because im only me

i am soo tired and soo worn out i have a hard time keeping up. ill admit it im only one person.

sorry just trying to get some of these thoughts out...they will continue to consume me if i dont...

example...h has told me he plans on staying here xmas eve. WHY??? for the kids? for yourself?? id love to ask him, but why create an argument?

i just dont know anymore...