For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

Hi Gnosis,
Well crappers...I sent the email to H earlier this morning about a 1/2 before you posted. : ( I figured it was too wordy - I'm always too wordy!

I didn't hear from him all day and right before he left work he emailed and said he didn't have time to think about it today and he would get back with me tomorrow. Hmmm...could be true or he could be intentionally stalling. I guess it doesn't matter - at least he acknowledged that he read it.

Thank you for the positive feedback. I really do appreciate it. It helps to keep me motivated. If you have read any of my history, then you know what a mess I've been - I was totally inconsistent - like extrememe peaks and valleys. And I was that way for 13+ months. It kinda just hit me like a ton of bricks - HELLO COURTNEY...WHAT YOU ARE DOING IS NOT HEALTHY AND IS NOT WORKING! I finally made the choice to take a little control. I know I cannot control my H, but I can control how I react to him. It's still very tuff, but I'm staying much more balanced.

Like I posted before, I'm trying to get everything in order and then soon I'm rocking the boat. I was much too inconsistent, reactive and emotional to do it before. Well...I could have done it and actually I did try and it blew up in my face.
I decided I needed a fresh start and a new, smarter attitude.

Anyway, thanks for checking in. : )