We struggled from poor communication for 11 years. I became bitter and critical. I withdrew from the relationship and lashed out through criticism to show my hurt. She was unable to communciate her needs and let her hurt fester to the point of numbness. Over the past year and a half. I have changed completely. I don't know why it started. I realized I didn't like the direction the marriage was heading and my life. I analyzed what I wanted and needed. I went to counseling, I changed my attitude. I let her know consistently that I loved her and why. She jumped between staying and going every couple of months since our issues were out in the open. She never completely opened up and refused counseling. She acknowledges that I am a changed man. A wonderful father and a good person. She just says she cannot let go of the past. Wants "new life experiences."
I just want to know where to go from here. I can just continue to be the man I've become. That's okay. I would like her in my life, but I am not overly hopeful. I can wait and see, but how does this happen without action?
