Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

[kissak]

Thanks guys...Im really really trying to just be patient a little longer. I think its just because NOTHING is happening lately. BUT Im trying to give him all the space in the world to work through this mess...but will he ever??

I mean, I want some attention!!!!!!!!

Saturday night he went to his annual christmas party with the ems people...I have always hated going to that party every year...well at least up till 3 years ago...but I guess a part of me had hoped he would have wanted me to go this year...Not that I would have, but the thought would have been nice...Im sure he didnt ask because he knew I wouldnt go...but still...its the thought...then he said yesterday that he werent that talkative, so he was quiet most of the day...hardly heard from him at all.

I guess it's things like that that are bothering me. Then I ran into a neighbor and found out that some woman my H was friends with had left her H and I knew he had been talking to her some...of course this was MONTHS ago and has no bearing on us now, but still it sends me spinning just a little bit to having to deal with the past.

Day is getting better. Im stronger than I use to be thats for sure, but I still have my days of doubt.