I'm not doing too well. I woke up with that sick feeling in my stomach. I hate feeling like this. I'm sinking a little faster than I thought but I'm still fighting but seemingly losing.
I wanted to go back to sleep after kids left to school (i never go back to bed) but I said to myself no you get up so I did. I came here - my safe place
It's raining today in Cal - I'm under the blanket with my laptop on the couch. I'm going to spend a little time here then get up and work out. G is gonna get on my sulking case!
Thanks for checking on me - I really do appreciate it.
Last edited by luvless; 12/07/0903:38 PM.
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
ok I better remove myself from my comfort zone and get up.
Maybe I need to be irresponsible like all other WA's and get a boyfriend! that'll keep me busy!
Don't do it, Luv (Though, I know you were probably kidding). Focus on your awesome self and flourish! Treat yourself to a hot shower/bath, put on your favorite smelling lotion/perfume and some lip gloss. Even if you don't go anywhere, you will feel 100x better
that is a great idea to turn on the music! here, I have a list I keep in my purse from someone here 3 years ago for gal'ing.
BEHAVIORS Start to organize your home (website flylady.net) Find a new way to drive to and from work Shop at a new grocery store Change the the of toothpaste/shampoo/lotion you use Be home when spouse comes home/comes over Don't be home Wait to return calls/emails- a day, a few hours, whatever is different and fits to your sitch Change the medium of contact- phone/email/letters Learn to flirt. (with caution please) Break plates to release anger (not sure on this one! lol) Become mysterious Stop initiating conversations Go to another room when spouse comes home (if it fits the sitch) Stop interfering/helping spouse with relationship with kids Don't make plans that include spouse Stop keeping spouse informed on kids Stop confronting spouse Leave the room first End the conversation first Go one day without saying "hurry" to your kids Stop defending self Listen
I don't know who that came from, but maybe you can find a couple things in there
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
hey, can you think back to the first time you were here, and if you were feeling this same way, and what was it that pulled you out of it? can you remember?
what can you do to get out of this funk? The problem is, if you REALLY want your M to work, if you stay in this funk, you are making your chances of it working lower and lower and lower. This path will not put you on the path of restoration.
So, you get to make a choice. Do you stay on this path, and feel bad for yourself (and I totally totally understand, and we all sometimes want to stay there too, and it's okay to feel that way) OR do you want to make things better? YOU CAN make choices to make things get better. You have more power in your hands than you think. But this road your traveling on is getting you farther and farther from your goal.
I'm so glad you decided to get up...although sleep might be good for you too if your not getting much... and great job putting on the music and working out. Running has really helped my mood I have noticed, and any type of exercise will help you. try to do something everyday if you can, and get out in the sun. try to make good food choices because bad food choices will only increase the likelyhood of you having more depression. So feed yourself well! Give yourself the best chance it can have to feel better!
you can do it!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
