Donna, loss is loss and somehow we just have to accept that it's OK to feel that gaping hole sometimes. It's human to want a companion, someone you can come home to and say "guess what happened today" and know that person cares. It's OK to keep desiring that and to sometimes shed a few tears, despite having a good life otherwise. It's not all black or white, perfection or failure...it's a mix, I guess that's what life is all about. Keep taking that step forward and believing that the pieces will one day fall into place and one day they will!!!