trying hard to figure things out

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I think they are maybe on the outs but if they got to the point of saying "I love you" to each other and they are past the honeymoon phase and are starting to have problems then it really makes me wonder how long they were together. We have only been apart for 5 months. The night he came home and gave me the speech he swore on his grandmother's grave he wasn't seeing anyone and he said my trust issues were one of the reasons he was leaving. He swore he would never cheat. He said if things didn't work out that he didn't want another woman ever again. He lied about everything. I could maybe forgive him if it was just sex but they have a relationship. He jumped out of our relationship and into another relationship just like the one he said he didn't want. I just don't know that I can ever forgive that. I don't know that now that he knows I know if he would even want to try again either.