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[mishka422]

You sound good, but like you are getting more worn down...

Definitely worn down OT. You know, I tell myself that I 'shouldn't' be so tired. I got plenty of sleep last night, I even ate breakfast this morning instead of just having coffee, but I'm still feeling exhausted. It must be mental exhaustion which isn't so easy to get around. There is a bit of frustration with my mom but it's more fear for her. She is back to feeling just as bad as she did before she went to the hospital. I feel like it's my fault. That I'm not taking good enough care of her and that is why she is declining again so rapidly. She doesn't eat like she should because I'm not home to fix it. I make her food when I'm there but then she won't eat so much of the time because she feels like she's going to throw up. I did order a nutritional drink through the pharmacy that is made specifically for renal patients. Made by the people that make Ensure but triple the price of course. $125 for a case of 24 nearly killed me! She is paying for it, but I've got to shop around to find it cheaper next time. If she didn't need it so quickly I would have shopped around now.

Yes, I'm aware that I can't take full responsibility for her health. I'm not a qualified care provider, I can only be there so much or we will be homeless. My logical mind tells me the reality, my subconscious enemy though brings all of these feelings of inadequacy up. At least I understand that much now and am learning to deal with it.

I have to share another fabulous blessing with you all!!!!! I forgot to post it last week!

One of the Atlanta radio stations has been doing a "Beauty Boost". They asked people to go to their website and fill out an entry form and submit it to them along with a picture describing why you deserve a 'boost' this Christmas. They were giving 250 people free services at an appointed time at a salon up at Phipps Plaza in Buckhead (very posh place). The boosts are scheduled for a day that I already had planned for a vacation day so I thought I'd apply and see what happened.

I WON ONE OF THE SPOTS!! I'm scheduled for a cut, style and color on 14DEC at 10:15a! Also, 1 out of every 10 people scheduled will be given a $250 gift card to a department store. BLESSINGS ABOUND!