Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Hey, mish! (hug)

Yeah, it was my weekend with the boys, so not much (any) posting for me as you know.

Kind of dissapointed I missed my work x-mas party Friday night, S11's doctor appointement ran too lon gfor me to make the trek back to work, but oh-well. So, I picked up XW and took her to 'her house' with S11. She had planned on me being at the x-mas party late and that I'd pick the kids up on Saturday, so she didn't have anything ready. After a long half our sitting in the truck figuring out what to do I opted to just take the kids with me as she had to sleep and work in the morning. It was great, we were back to completing each other's sentences, thoughts, the whole nine yards.

For those unfamiliar, when she left, she moved to her fathers house 4 blocks from our house that I ended up leaving once the D got underway and she got temporary custody of the kids.

Speaking of her father, as we sittin gin the truck, he must have been working in his garage and parked out back, because he drove by us, very, very slowly as we were parked out front.

Anyway, Saturday at my cousins where I'm staying was a very emotionally charged day, her niece's son had been arrested the night before and was in super huge trouble. S11 opted to make dinner for everybody, which was fantastic, but needless to say, everybody's emotions were on high gear. XW and I texted back and forth quitre a bit during the day. Then at night, the uncertanty bug crept in me and I NEEDED re-assurance from XW that OM was no-where around. She was hanging out with her girl-friend at 'our' house and swears by it, so I need to work on that.

We did talk on the phone right away sunday morning, ironically at 10:17 All I could tell her was that I was sorry for the way I handled my feelings, but not for feeling them about OM and she needs to step up to re-assure me if this going to go anywhere serious.

She says now she is moving back into 'our' house to ease some of the tension with her father and help with the bills and payment of the hosue. Makes sense. I stood my ground and said I am not stepping another foot in that house. She says she understands, and it's only short term until it goes up on the market.

We all went to dinner again last night. Was very nice. XW was as radiant looking she had always been, made me think of how often I took for granted to have such a beautiful person at my side. The boys were not as well behaved as they had been the first time, but that didn't stop us from having a great time, light talking and affixed on each other. She is a remarkably gorgeous woman, I can't believe I ever lost sight of that.

Well, after dinner, took them 'home'. Boys ran in the house right away and XW stayed in the truck to 'talk'. I should say that fromt he moment we got off the block when I picked her up for dinner, she instantly grabbed my hand and clinged it the whole way to dinner and all the way back. And of course, like love sturck highschoolers, we talked, kissed, talked and kissed some more to the tune of 45 minutes. End result she IS completey done with OM, "never" was attached to him in any emotional way, that was my place in her heart, and is going to find an alternate means to get to work and sever that tie. Of course, all I could say was again, you need to.

We talked on the phone a bit when I got home and it was all good. More of things we took for granted in each other, living like the problems of today can be handled tomorrow, but as we both now know, tomorrow has a chance to not come and live for today.

We are going to do a date night at some point this week, weekend, maybe both.