I go on the 24th December. I have my Christmas day all planned out when I get to Singapore. It involves sleeping the morning away on a sun bed (in the shade!!) at a beachside bar and going for lunch at my brothers favourite restaurant and then watching the Christmas parade. I can't wait!
I feel quite down generally at the moment. Everyone seems to be in a bad mood at work, I had some sad family news at the weekend and I am really missing H. It is taking all my strength not to contact him but I am determined not to. If he wants to see me he needs to step up, however what I really want is a hug 'old style' with him. I know it isn't going to happen, but it doesn't stop me just sometimes wanting that.
I also have had a bit of guy confusion the past couple of weeks with this guy I had a thing with. But it is teaching me a lot about dating. Basically we had a really wonderful weekend together a few of weeks back, after which time he implied a 'friends with benefits' situation which I said no to. Friends or relationship but nothing in between. Since then he has text me everyday to tell me what he is up to etc and asking me how I am. I respond but never initiate, but I have no idea what he wants. I don't know whether to just pull right back or carry on.
Here is to escaping the world for just a little while.
