Is this co-dependence, a subconscious anxiety that I can't do it all without him to support and help me? The more I do on my own, the less likely that this seems to be the problem with me, the less likely that these feelings will stop. Co-dependence might fade away, but there is more to this left.
I am working hard on my disorganization issues. Went back to DBT things I learned, set up a tight schedule with it all written down, have someone helping me organize my backload of paperwork. Catching up with work things and prioritizing. Still feel overwhelmed sometimes, that all of this is meant for more than one person to handle, but am getting better at it. I might not have been cut out to be Supermom, but I am putting things in place to make that more accessible. I KNOW that I am a smart person and can do this! Just needed some training and a fire lit under my a$$...
