Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

gl, ya, I am. I am at the point now, that I am 90% sure I am going to file. The latest round of lies, improper care for my boys, and her overall nonchalant attitude, just solidifies that stance. Clearly this woman is not interested in anything but herself, and whatever "business" she is conducting. I have admitted my mistakes, I have identified my shortcomings, I have owned up to everything she has told me I did wrong. I own it all, I accept it. What I don't accept is her being able to disregard the safety and welfare of her own children-not to mention someone else's children, to facilitate her actions. I am very protective of my boys, and when they are placed in harms way, I go into protect mode. The only problem with that is-right now, I am unable to protect them as I am deployed. I am scared. I am fearful. I didn't ask for this. I now have to deal with it. I have to overcome that fear, and stand up for myself for a change. 4 days to go...