I am about to start MC in a couple of weeks too. Take a deep breath and remind yourself you have no control over your H, whether it's in MC or otherwise. Don't worry about why H agreed to go or not. Just go to MC and do the best you can. Wherever it leads, who knows.
The difficulty at this point is to follow two paths - one of preparing yourself for a life without H and one of remaining open to reconciliation. Tough part is being able to do both at the same time.
