Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

I have to know something. If there are any WAS reading my sitch, did you ever THINK about what you were doing? Did you THINK of the damage you were causing? Did you ever THINK about your kids, and what they were going through? Did you ever THINK that you were acting irresponsibly? Did you EVER worry about your children while you were out with OP? Not sure why I want/need to know this stuff, but I just can't wrap my mind around my W behavior. I cannot fathom how a person can go from one extreme to another, and NOT feel some sort of pain/remorse/emotion for their children. I just don't get it...