Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

I don't know what to do. My W has completely shut me off from my boys. I feel helpless. She has just gotten nastier and nastier, ever since I started this. I don't want her back, I just want all of this to be over with. I want my boys with me, so that I can give them the warm, loving, disciplined home they deserve. I am completely out of control, and I don't know if I will ever regain control of myself. This weekend should have been great, instead, it made an already bad situation-worse. I am starting to feel depressed, with a twinge of anxiety, due to the unknown of all of this. I know I can't control the unknown, and I know I have to be prepared for anything. The only thing is, after this weekend, I am not sure how to prepare for what is happening in my home. I have 4 days to figure out what I am doing. I have 4 days to come up with a solution for what my W is doing to my kids. I have 4 days, until the proverbial $hit hits the fan...