#67 Cant find my "pieces"

[Forrest Gump]

"close friend are telling me "get ovet this, stoo asking about the A, her, forget it etc". And I try.But it's not healthy, it eats me up inside. It's something I NEED."

So.. you need to hear it? Is that what you really think? What would you "do" with the knowledge? I understand you want the "pictures".. I will assure you they will do you "no good". Based on my assumption of who you are and the "thoughts" you have posted here.. I disagree.

We want.. what we can't have. And at times it can consume you.

Your "H" is the "player" in every word you write. As you have said.. he payed attention when he was being "played".

You stopped playing the game Maria.

Prepare.. Protect.

"When he got ready to leave, he came to me, grabbed me, and gave me a passionate kiss. Caught me by surprise. I didnt get excited or anything, it was more like "what the heck is going on?" and I think he got "bad" vibes from me, which wasnt my intention, I was just shocked. I tried to smooth that out by hugging him tighter but... I didnt feel anything."

Looking back.. what should you have done? He like the surprise kisses. He is looking at the "reaction".