WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

Just some journaling

She didn't call the boys on Friday nite. Typical.....

The three of us had a great time though. We went to a local pizza place for dinner (one that we had gone to quite often before she moved out). The owner and employees know the boys since they were each 3 months old (pretty much when they were "big" enough to go out). So the boys really enjoy going there as they have the run of the place.

Afterwards we went to a christmas event at our church. We got there at 6 and didn't leave till it was over at 9. The kids were a little skeptical as we were driving there, but they wound up having a blast. We went on a horse and carriage ride, an animal petting zoo, watched a live nativity scene with animals, saw the kids choir perform a show and of course there was an endless supply of fresh baked christmas cookies. The kids made a bunch of ornaments for our christmas tree that we were going to set up this weekend.

They had been disappointed their mother set up a tree at her apt without them. She told them she did it all by herself, but she had bought a live tree and is in a second floor apt, so I seriously doubt she got it up the stairs by herself. More lies to the boys, but whatever.....

The kids got up early on Sat morning excited to setup our tree at home. I told them they would have to wait till after breakfast. After breakfast, I went down to get the christmas tree stuff out but was surprised/hurt to see a lot of stuff was missing. My boys got really upset too. It was my own fault, I should have checked before I told the boys we would do the tree together. Or I could have made it an event to go buy some "new" decorations together.

Anyway, I told the boys that we will make it an awesome tree with whatever we had and we could pick out some new decorations together if we needed it. I told them let's see what we had and we can figure it out. I let my 3 year old hang up the ornaments at the bottom of the tree, my 7 year old hung them up in the middle and I did the top. There were a couple of ornaments that were "mom" ornaments. I was surprised she didn't take them, but when we got to them, my 7 year old just said we can hang them up in the back of the tree so we won't have to look at them all the time. It broke my heart to hear him say it, but I let him hang them there.

When we got all the ornaments that we had hung up, the boys spirits were a little better as they said it looked awesome. Then they asked about the train. They said that she hadn't set it up so they thought it should be at home. I looked all over the basement but couldn't find it anywhere. Finally I told them that we don't have it. My boys lost it. My 7 year old started to cry and my 3 year old got really mad. I hugged them both and just said that we can go out tomorrow to pick out a train set that we would like. My 7 year old said he didn't want to waste my money as he knew I didn't have a job. I told him that it wouldn't be a waste as it was something that would be important to the three of us.

My 3 year old then said he wanted to call mommy to see if she'll bring it back. So they called her. Big surprise, she didn't answer so they left a voice mail. She called a little while later and the first thing my 7 year old asked was can we borrow the train set since she wasn't using it this year. She seemed to be surprised by this as all she said was ok. Then my 7 year old said bye and hung up. We'll see if she actually brings it.

We had lunch and my 3 year old went for his nap. I was playing pokemon with my 7 year old when we noticed it was starting to snow. We started to look for our winter gear so we could go out to play in it when my 3 year old woke up from his nap.

My neighbor wound up ringing the doorbell while we were gathering our winter gear. I had told him yesterday that I was back as I lost my job again. He had brought over a homemade dinner his wife made when she heard what happened to me. It was a really nice gesture which brought a tear to my eye to see how there were still good people out there. Guess the mother had really jaded me into giving up on people....

When my 3 year old woke up, we went out and started shoveling the driveway. Then we made a couple of snowmen and had a snowball fight. It was great!

She didn't call again on Sat, but I didn't have them call her as they seemed so happy and they always get down when they call her and she doesn't answer so I didn't want to bring down their mood.

Today, after we had breakfast, we wound up going sledding. My boys were really excited as last year we didn't get enough snow to go sledding so my 3 year had never gone sledding and my 7 year old was bumming about not getting a chance last year. We went out there and it was awesome.

So pretty much this weekend was a wintery fun filled weekend for the boys and I. She didn't pick them up tonite as she was sick (strep throat). I told her that I can keep them tomorrow nite as well since she's not feeling well and I wouldn't want them to catch it. She said we would talk about it tomorrow.

So goes another weekend.

I do have a couple of interviews next week so I'm excited about that. I had called her to ask if her mom could watch the kids while I was at the interviews (we reduced the child care cost by having me watch the 3 year old Mon, Weds and Fri and took my 7 year old out of the before and after school care program he was in). She said her mom would.

So hopefully an opportunity pops soon......