Apparently I was missed - I have been included in the sibs' secret Santa (they set it up that households are buying a gift for another household, rather than individuals this year - I got younger BIL's house, the one who recently had the baby I haven't met). He is the one who is hosting XMas this year, and I was invited again. I guess I will wait to decide until it gets closer, again. I think I am still re-setting the relationships in my head.
I had a down day, today. I know it is the holidays. And just more schedule stuff with life and work. Won't bore with the details, since we have all been there, I think. Just missing the life I had. I did go to Church today, and helped some of the kids (they were doing Kids in Service today, so were doing the readings, being ushers, etc.). The end of the service found me really down (just seeing intact families, I think).
Home to a nap, trying to reset my head. It worked a little... went out with the kids to get some snow gear, then off with them and in-laws to get our tree and wreaths. Christmas music, home to get decorations up from downstairs. (Ugh, next to the huge pile of laundry).
Going through the motions today, though. Hope that things will feel better tomorrow.
