Some of my resentment is just from being treated like garbage. Some of derrived from my own actions and some is that I feel like I have been sold a false bill of goods. My W was always the quiet, modest, loving, respectful and mature girl. I have no interest in being married to a party girl whose goal is to show the world how "strong and independent" she is. It's like being married to a someone with a chip on their shoulder who is always looking to prove themself.
As far as a week on and a week off with S, it would be really hard to do. I leave for work 2 hours before he starts school and don't get home until 2-2.5 hours after he is done. W has a work from home business (that I helped start) so she brings him to school and picks him up. If we did the week on/off, he sould spend lots of time in latch-key. He may as well be with him Mom and I don't have to pay for it. We do talk every night that he is gone. I couldn't imagine it any other way.
When I went tp pick up S on Friday, W texted me and asked that I bring her some popcorn when I came over. We didn't have any at our house, but I was stopping at the store and picked up some for her. She seemed to appreciate it. I also brought her a screwdriver since I knew she lost hers and could use one at her new place.
I still didn't say much when I picked S up there though. It's quick, we exchange robotic pleasantries, don't make eye contact and don't go past the front door. She tries to talk to me like I am her buddy, like all is well. I am generally not a jerk, but I am quiet with short responses.
I put up Christmas lights on the house yesterday and went out with a friend last night. W talked to me for a minute when I called to talk to S (he was there last night as her parents were down again this weekend) and made sure to mention that I was on my way out. She didn't seem to care. She doesn't care about anything. She didn't even seem to care when she dropped S off this afternoon that our Christmas tree was up and she wasn't even a part of it.
She did come in for a minute when she dropped him off. I just can't bring myself to hang out with her like we're pals.
It's like there's nothing at all between us.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
