Magnificent

[mishka422]

Thanks K. I know that is part of why I'm feeling the way I am. It's also why I've been trying really hard to change my thinking whenever the darkness creeps into my mind.

As if things couldn't get any weirder, I decided that I was going up in the attic no matter what and getting at least a few things down. I had just gone around the house to get the ladder from the back and had brought it in the garage when Gabe pulled up out front. No call, no warning. He just showed up. Marc had told him earlier that I was going to work on the decorations today and he had offered to come help get them down if I wanted but I had told him that I would call him if I discovered I couldn't do it. Supposedly he had to get something at wallyworld and he decided to stop by the house to see if I needed any help and to see Marc. Yeah right. There is a walmart in his city so he had no need to come to mine. Anyway, he asked if I wanted help since he was there and I wasn't about to refuse. We chatted, he got all the boxes down and the tree and then decided that Marc really needed to clean out the gutters while he was there to supervise especially since it is going to rain again in a couple of days and they looked clogged. OK...................

It just seemed strange. I didn't feel weird having him here, it was nice to have the help, it was great to have Marc's dad here getting him to do stuff that I repeatedly ask him to do and can't get him to cooperate with.

When he left he touched my arm and told me to have fun decorating. That's when it hurt. He got in the car and left and I came in the house but my arm was tingling where he had touched it. Now I'll say this before you all jump on my case, I don't think it was because it was him that touched my arm, I think it was just that a man touched my arm in a kind way. I haven't had any man who is not a family member touch me in any way in 2 years. It unnerved me and now has me pondering the subject.

Strangeness......