feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

G - I don't have my 3 things todays. I'm just miserable inside...sorry to disappoint you.

Yesterday was what I call a "fake" day. We talked to each other civilly and he put up christmas lights on the house - we went together to buy new ones. We ended up going to a $150 dinner. I said, "you wanna go to dinner" he says, "yeah." H suggested we go to this place (one he knows I've been wanting to try but is expensive) it was beautiful in there and the food was great. We enjoyed dinner but I felt upset inside the whole time. I can't go much more longer feeling like this. He is good at this but I am not.

We came home and sat on the couch didn't talk much so I got irritated and went to bed without saying goodnite.

I took him to airport this am - went for 3 days to meet investors for bank job. He once again lucks out by getting a trip (I call it a getaway even if its work) luxury hotels and fine dinners...not work to me.

I hate my life lately....