feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

ST - I'm not sure which question you were talking about? I don't need a sitter anymore my kids are all self sufficient. I'm trying to focus on me right now but it's hard. I've felt very very sad and alone. My H has abandoned me (as usual) so I am dealing in my own way. I'm trying to practice what I read here but I am feeling defeated. I'll get out of this slump but right now I just don't know.

I am going to work on turning this sadness to MADness. I am going to shut down. I have lost respect for my H.