Wolverine, sorry you are having a tough time right now. Things will get better and you are the one who is going to make them better. Football is an excellent distraction but if it doesn't work...go to the book store and pick up Tolle's The Power of Now. I read it last night and it gave me a great deal of clarity about my circumstances and helped instill some compassion for my wife. However your sitch turns out, that book will help at some point in your life in some way. Know that God is watching over you right now.