You push, I'll pull.

[Kelly23]

ok..let me warn you that I have been to a family wedding and am still really emotional and still really drunk....

what in the hell am I doing stil married? why am i staying until my kids are grown? he lied to me not once, but twice and I have not kicked him out yet? what the heck? my daughter knows and needs to see that I am a strong woman that is not going to put up with the bull crap. When i get home, he is leaving. He does not deserve to still be allowed in the house with me after all he has done.

[Gardener]

my daughter knows and needs to see that I am a strong woman that is not going to put up with the bull crap.

Yes, she does.

When i get home, he is leaving. He does not deserve to still be allowed in the house with me after all he has done

Maybe time for the fort-eight hour rule: not what to do, but when.
Keep us posted.

[Kelly23]

we just got back home and he is in the bed sick....how evil am I that I still want to tell him to get out sick or not?
But of course I do not have the nerve to do...i have turned into a wimp and it makes me angry.

[Gardener]

Kelly,
Sleep. Rest.
Tomorrow.

[Kelly23]

I did just that Gardener. But the weekends at home are horrible.
I thought I could live with him here for the kids but being so lonely all the time stinks! I so much want to be hugged, cuddled, loved. And with the holidays coming up, I have a feeling it is just going to get worse.

[Kelly23]

Well, husband called me tonight from work. He has not done that in forever. Why am I mad about it? I have decided I am done and then he starts trying to make nice again. I don't make nice with people that break promises not once but twice. He does not deserve me.

[Super Girl]

You're done, and he's starting to move towards you. Isn't that successful DBing?

[Kelly23]

Hi Sad Girl,
If it had happened after the first affair, I would say it was wonderful. After the second one, I do not want him anymore. I can never trust him again. I cannot live like this for the rest of my life. I would rather be alone than be with someone that saw me crushed to the core and lied some more while searching for a new affair.
Fool me once, shame on you..fool me twice, shame on me. I am a new person, one that does not want my cheating husband.

[nikblondiew]

Kelly,

I know exactly how you feel. Exactly. Lonely, want a hug, kiss, to feel loved and wanted again. My story is much like many on here.....can see some of my posts.
I know in my mind I deserve more and this is black and white to me in my head. Plain and simple but in my heart, it's not. I'm really struggling with letting go of him. Because we have a son, because I know nothing else, because I still love him.

[luvless]

(((Kelly))))

I just read all your posts. You've tried so hard I've seen you up and down and I feel for you. I wanted to let you know you weren't the only one feeling miserable on thanksgiving day - I was too - first time ever being so down on a holiday for me.

I just needed to tell you..you aren't alone. I've only been feeling what you've been feeling for 3 weeks I can't imagine 3 months or 2 years! God help us we need it.

Your day is coming soon....