Coping with Bi-Polar WAW

[CountingCrows]

Thanks Awoken. I've been following your thread closely as well, but just like you haven't commented before. My wife hasn't thrown out the D word since the day she left, but also shows no indication that she's changing her mind.

I certainly feel for you in your sitch. I really don't think I could do this in-house like you are. Just seeing W each school day for 10-15 minutes is nearly too much for me.

Tonight I went out with a friend to watch another friend's band play. I was still pretty messed up from W's visit earlier, but was glad to not be sitting around the house all night.

My W and I bonded early on via music. In fact, one of the first "dates" we had was when Led Zeppelin re-united for the UnLedded concert and she asked if she could come over and watch it with me. Music...bands and songs have threaded our entire relationship together. Tonight, certain songs were just downright painful to hear, flashing me back to much happier times. One of the most upbeat songs, Crazy B1tch, nearly had me in tears, since it was one of the last concerts that we went to together, and we ALWAYS danced to it when we were at clubs (and I don't usually dance). I can't listen to the radio right now. I have to listen to CDs of my "weird music" (Porcupine Tree, Opeth) instead to keep from thinking of her.

Tomorrow is another day, and I'll face it head on like the rest...but I have to say that I'm glad today is over.