Well, it's that time you all wait breathlessly for...the Whatis update! Don't change that dial or you'll miss the...the...OK, you'll miss something...I'm not sure what but you'll miss it! Anyway, today was a busy day as I was out Christmas shopping. STBX and the kids were to put out the tree and decorate today and I didn't want to be sitting alone in my apartment thinking about missing that. I got most of the kids shopping done, which is a relief. Tonight, I went to a church service which I enjoy. So all in all, it was a good day...except I'm poorer financially. This was the third weekly visit to the Cognitive Therapist and she says that I've had alot of trauma and pain in my life and may need to go back and revisit that to heal. Personally, I want to get past all the sh!t and get on with being a happy camper again. Damm therapy! If I wanted to suffer I'd have got myself Toronto Maple Leaf seasons tickets. Oh well. I also gave her the tidbit in my history I had neglected to mention to her in previous sessions, that being my adventures with Coffee Buddy (and if you don't know about that I'm not gonna explain it now!) So therapist says "Whatis, I'm sure she was a gift from God to help you with your pain but there's one thing I have to ask and I don't quite know how to ask it" so I said "what the hell were you thinking?" She says "that's it!" Who says I can't read a woman's mind!!! So, I'm also on my fourth week of taking the AD's. I'm taking 5 mg versus 10 mg, as doctor advised me to do, and so far I've noticed nado except I wake up at 5:00 am every friggin morning now. I think me and the doc will need to have a talk soon. My friends say you have to give these things 4 to 6 weeks to kick in. We'll see. Lastly, I've kind of started going back to my woman friends church. Last week I went to the Prayer meeting I used to go to months ago. When I arrived I was met with hugs and really lovely greetings, it was nice to be back there. Yesterday I went to a concert there as well. So tomorrow is Sunday service and I am somewhat anxious about going because the "other person" in my best friends marital breakup will be there. Now, I don't have to sit with him, although my woman friend does, I know lots of other people to sit with but... I try to tell myself what this person did is between him and God, not me. Anyway, we'll see what happens. Take care Dbers. Whatis is still kicking!
