My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[goldeylox]

((Mama)) I get it babe, I really do. We've talked about this. I'm meeting someone for coffee today from my former church, the one that ADORES my Hus and cannot believe he would EVER do anything remotely un-Godly. I will be polite, but a little cautious, too. She was formerly one of my dearest friends, for over 15 years.
I spent most of this year in bed. Wallowing. Angry that my friends abandoned me in my hour of need.
What I should have done was hang on to the two or three people who have the emotional intelligence to help me figure out what my new life should look like.
I did a good job of dumping the toxic people, but not a good job of surrounding myself with healthy ones. I just isolated. Hurt my Sis, the strongest girl I know, very badly in the process. Which sets up a pattern that is really, really hard to break. Fortunately, we have worked it out.

What's the goal, honey?

I know, our first choice would be that a bolt of lightning comes down and takes out your X and the new honey. Probably not going to happen.
I prayed that God would just take me to heaven today. Every morning, for months. Not too healthy. If you are having similar thoughts, I'm worried.
But if your goal is to find peace, reconciliation, and love...you're going to have to get the poison out of your system.
I'm in the alt for 'ya. Oh, and I have a new thread.
love, Goldey XoXoX