WAW on suicide watch, what now???

[MHL]

I actually wrote the last post late last night and forgot to submit it.

New developments today. I saw and spoke to my W at the drop off today for my S9 to see her. First time I have seen her or spoken to her in 3 weeks. The original plan was for him to spend all day with her and sleepover with her in her rented room and then she would drop him at church in the morning with me. I had my cell off this morning and she had texted me twice, which I did not get. She finally called me!!!! One small goal accomplished. I hated texting and email plus it leaves a trail. I also set some boundaries, no more texts, emails and voice mail, we have to talk from now on. She agreed with some small exceptions on texts which I agreed to. Also I did not want SIL at the drop off, my W complied somewhat and SIL stayed in restaurant while we did drop off.
When I spoke with her on the phone early this morning, I could tell she had been crying. I did not ask why, she asked if we could change plans with S9 visitation this weekend. Her part time job called her and changed the schedule at the last minute so she has to work today at noon. (The great escape ain’t so great anymore!!) She wanted to know if I had plans tomorrow with S9 so she could spend time with him tomorrow. I agreed b/c S9 misses his mom and I know it would be good for him and maybe my W will start to come back to reality. She also let me know that she needed to work b/c she need the money, again, the great escape ain’t so great anymore.
I was nice at the drop off and smiled at her and acted glad that she and S9 were able to see each other. I have to go back and pick him up in 1 hour (short visit 2 hours) at mom’s place of work, the mall. She agreed that it would just be us no others, she must not be scared of me anymore, she told MIL that she was scared of me while she was in the hospital. Translate, scared to face me and the guilt of what she has done and what a mess of her life she has made. Gotta go to pick up S9.