Things that I want:

I want this emotional roller coaster nightmare of a ride to end.

I want someone to tell me everything is going to be all right.

I want to be happy.

I want to be loved by the person I married.

Why I can't have what I want:

The emotional roller coaster ride will continue until I am able to let go 100%. And even then, will it end?

I have heard over and over again that everything will be all right and that I won't always feel this way. Now I just need to believe it.

I can control my happiness, and right now I am letting H control it.

I can't make someone love me, it is a decision that H needs to make.

I know the in's and out's of DB. So, why is it so hard for me to put it into practice?

If you love something enought, set it free. I am scared to take this leap. What do I have to lose? Right now it seems like the answer is everything.

Me & H: 33 yrs
S: 4 & 6
D: 2
M: 9 yrs
ILYBNILWY: 8/09
SEPARATED: 9/09
The Beginning