Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I called to talk S after sending my email last night. I made a point to talk to W in a social way. ( I haven't said more than a few more words to her since she moved out last week). It was nice to just talk to her trying 5 or 10 minutes about TV shows.

She did take exception to my email, but we didn't dwell on it too much.

I find myself essentially indifferent to her at this point though. I feel very little for her. Occasionally I feel sad. Sometimes I feel resentment. Mostly I have realized that this version of he is not who I want to be married to. Don't get me wrong, I would love to have my family together again, but a lot would have to change. A lot would have to be addressed. I have no interest in being married to someone who is still trying to be one of the "cool kids" in school.