It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

X-mas plans got complicated which led to a long, late-night conversation w/ W. It was a good talk, comfortable even intimate. We talked a lot about the girls and my improvements (I'm not blind to the fact that they need to be shown and not talked about--and neither is she). It made me wonder why the gulf between us is so wide, why she feels so "done."

I'm not ignorant of the fact that one good conversation (or even several) will make for a reconciliation. Much has to be done on both ends before that is a realistic consideration. And I'm not bringing that up until there is a long-term and consistent intimacy that isn't easily disrupted by disagreements. But it was a small step forward after so many I've taken that have set me back.