K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I just need to separate myself from my W as best as possible and not look at anyone else like I have been. I just need to focus on my kids and not live a double standard life regardless of how frusturated I become. It isn't worth it and it does nothing in the way of helping me be the complete person I need to be. I think really I am just going to bury myself in my work and kids and try and make the next jump in my career. I am not going to bother pursuing an outside R with someone. It just isn't worth it. And it defeats any and all efforts of "standing". And why do I want to pursue something that I would essentially have to keep quiet if I want any chance of my W coming back. I don't feel right about it. If I can't look my kids straight in the eyes and be honest, then I don't need to be doing it.

Whatever happens will happen. Nothing I can do about it. I really have to focus back on myself again and being the best I can be. I really lost track of that recently and started down a path I should have avoided. I am going to get myself back on the right path.

Middle ground would be good Puppy. I am going to take some time off from the boards for a while.

Kevin