ST - I saw him really working on us. Communicating better and more openly not retreating like usual. His loving gestures and tone. I was feeling that we were maturing and becoming a better couple. I was enjoying my marriage for the first time.

I try and let him be to figure stuff out on his own. I try but I see him struggle so I help/suggest but I guess that doesn't work. I just want him to know I'm here but he never comes to me with his problems.

I agree we are both focusing on the negative right now and guilty of that. He knows the real me and I know the real him. We are bumping heads big time. It's like a power struggle I guess. He is asserting his power over me and I don't like it. I am a reasonable person and I think I am a healthy individual. I'm dealing with a man who shuts down and refuses to acknowledge his part. The refusal is what bothers me most. It's all my fault don't you know? I'm the one "fighting."

I'm pretty pissed today - don't wanna care but thank you ST for pointing stuff out to me. I'm listening!


M44 H41
M20 T23
3 older teens
Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy"
EA Nov 09 w/coworker
Another PA in Mar 10
I Filed Apr 10
D final Dec 10