Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Was thinking about my sitch again this morning when I had a strange thought. In a way, I'm always thinking about my sitch. This time last year I was pulling my hair out because of the coldness of my W and wondering how long I could go without ML.

So really the only thing that has changed is my circumstances.

Luckily there won't be a lot of time to think this weekend. It's my weekend without the kids and I've been able to fill the past few of these weekends going out. I haven't sat home on a weekend night since --- August maybe.

But this weekend is different. I'm working at basketball games Friday night and Saturday morning. Covering for a friend at my regular job Saturday night and then have the girls on Sunday.

I'll make more than I spend for the first time in a while.

My next weekend night without the kids where I'm not working is Dec. 19. After that it is Jan. 1 and 2. After that it is Jan. 16.

I also was thinking about Christmas. Dec. 23 is my normal night with them. My church is having 10 straight days of Christmas performances so I can take them that night.

Then on Christmas Eve W had said I could have them that night. I don't think it's necessary. She can have them the entire night and the next morning and then Christmas night and the next two days are my weekend anyway.

There are cheap indoor water park tickets on sale. I could take them on Dec. 26 or Dec. 27.

I'm not sure what I'll do on Christmas Eve. My sister invited me to Lake Geneva, but it's more of a kids event. I could drive to Sun Prairie to visit a cousin.

I could spend $100 playing Texas HoldEm poker at a Chicago area casino.