Just go get another IM. And you got to leave the IM alone when it comes to your R. Do not tell him your feelings. You do all R stuff as a business transaction. Thats it.
Or if you have no IM. you take the xmas stuff over to one of her friends or relatives and give it to them , one that your still friends with. Just say WAS wanted this stuff so here can you let her know you have it.
Or you put the stuff outside for her to pick up and have someone contact her.
Or you just ignore her but bag the stuff up anyways.
Choices.
As for your current IM. Forgive him and let him know that you understand. Its a tough place. You need your friends.
What ever you do just do this today so you can stop worrying about it. There are better distractions than this.
