Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

I guess I'm not detached enough yet. Trying to be honest here. You are right, darn it. I am parenting fine, he's the one who left us. And yes, why should I help him ease his conscience at my expense.

But I'm afraid of what not answering will do. That I should be cordial and respond with thanks for the well wishes? Ugh. I guess not. Maybe I should just stick with not answering and he needs to try harder? I'm confused.

Doesn't feel like not answering gives me power. Makes me afraid of the consequences instead.