It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

I went dark. It did nothing for her, but helped me get where I am. A semi-open line of communication with her is in the works right now. Regarding my life and progress. Only about what I'm doing, not as explanation or manipulation. Until she sees an interesting, independent, passionate person, there's no respect.

I'm a little irritated about the trip, but not fixating. I was curious how to frame my concerns. But I'm realizing that they don't matter. I can't tell her not to go. She knows I'm not happy about the idea of her with another guy. And saying "tell me when you hook up with someone" is odd and clingy. It won't matter. Holding on drives the WAS away.