Hey.....just sticking my head in to give you a big old bear (((((hug))))! It sucks going through the holidays with all of this staring you in the face, but you have proven that you are a winner at life. A little thing like unemployment, pending D, and child custody isn't going to get this guy down! You're made of the right stuff and you will get through this. BTW, you are allowed to feel human and all this pumping up I may be doing is not to say you aren't allowed to have a bad day now & then. Just make sure if you fall off the horse that you climb back on and charge ahead.
I'll be checking in to see how you and the boys are. Take care and don't get sick during flu season.
Thanks Mom
Your timing was impecable. I just had a really crappy call. Don't know why it's weighing on me as this is the path I've been driven to and have accepted it. I think part of it was Weds' call showed me a possibility. It wasn't a possibility I would want for myself as if it was just me, I would have been done a while ago. It's just when I look and listen to my boys I kick myself in the butt to try and "fix" it again - I know typical DAM stuff.
Even today, when I picked up both of the boys, they were telling me how they were sad and mad about mommy leaving. They even said they asked her this week to come home and she said no because I was still being mean to her. They said they didn't think I was mean and then asked why she broke her promise. She said she didn't know what promise they were talking about.
It's absolutely crazy.
Even tonite, I told her that a divorce is destructive and that there is not pot of gold that she's gonna cash in on at the end of this. We will both be starting at zero because this will destroy everything we have built up over the past year. I am not afraid of that as I've started with nothing and grew from there. I know I can do it again.
All this stuff reminds me of the question - do dumb people really know how dumb the are? I think in this case, she has no idea.....
Me 41 WAW 36 S 3&7 M 10 yrs W files D 1/9/09 W moves out 4/18 Lost job 6/15 New job 7/27 Disc PA 8/10 (started Nov 2008!) Confronted 8/11 Admits PA & appologies for hurt 9/11 Lost Job 11/13
