He is 14 and he knows exactly what his father is doing - He can't move until he is off probation however just the simple fact that the plans have been made for this summer (if S is off probation) just shows me that H has no intention of ever coming home.
He also knows Dad will allow him to do basically whatever he wants whenever he wants cause he always wants to be the good guy so that makes him cool.
Forget the facts - we have no house, no car, no monetary support from him, nothing emotionally, physically or mentally from him but he is the good guy and I am nothing but a POS doormat for everyone to walk over.
I am tired, so very tired and I cried tonight until I was physically sick and it just doesn't matter anymore. It is apparent that I am not as strong as I thought I was and I am never going to be good enough for him no matter what I do.
I don't want to live this life anymore.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
