I remember my H locked the bathroom door too! They have lost their minds that is all there is to it!
I was reading your thread and you sounded so good and you sounded like you had made alot of progress. Remember we all are going to have those awful days no matter what. You are going to make it!
I think it hurts us most when it involves our kids. I know it did me. Lizzie and I had a plan to get a bus and drive it cross country and make all the stops to each MLC and run them over!!!! Of course it was all made up but that is where our thoughts were at the time.
Christmas was hard for me too when H was gone. I had enough money to pay the bills, barely. I don't know but I scrimped and saved enough to make it a halfway decent Christmas for the kids and my GD. They understand.
As for what he is thinking, well I wouldn't want to be in their brain
