It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

And here's the rough draft of the letter. It has been edited for content...

I will come across as a xxxxxx, I'm sure, so be forewarned.

Something's happening this weekend. Or your friend would like it to happen, unless he's gay. You're hot, so he'd be stupid (or gay, as I said) not to try to hook up.

My assumption is that you either didn't want to tell me that or you don't buy that he's interested. He is. He may not even try anything. His loss, if that's the case. My clumsy drunken speech in Laramie (about women as xxxxxxxxxxx) was about the idea that men always want to sleep w/ a woman.

I DON'T see women as purely sexual objects, though many men do. I DO recognize the fact that sex is always on guys' minds and most men will try something if they think they can get it. If they aren't trying to hook up w/ a woman, they STILL WANT TO, but have confused ideals about the ethics behind it.

If you are planning something, then so be it. I don't like it, but it isn't my place to like or dislike it. The best thing I did over the last few months was give up the idea that I have or even want any control over you. It's the happiest I've been in years to let go.

You offered to tell me when you had any romantic/sexual inclinations and I told you I didn't want to know. Well, it's a fact of life and I have to deal with it. Better to know and learn to cope than spend my time wondering and being paranoid. I won't like it and I'll avoid communication if I have any evil intentions.

If there is no intention of any physical dalliances this weekend, that's fine and I'm an ass for intruding. You can always tap this xxx if you have to scratch that itch No strings.


Have at it, 2x4s and all.