Can I save my marriage?

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Okay, Gucci, You are totally right. I 100% agree with you. There is a lot of fear in me. There was way more when he left, and then it slowly went away. I was doing so well. Now that he's home its back, and its back with a vengeance.

So, what I'm asking is now that I"ve made a huge mistake and let him back in, where do I go from here? What do I say? How do I start the conversation? I just don't know.

I was having such a good month in november. I was GAL'ing like crazy, I felt good about myself, and now that he's home, I feel different. I just don't have the want to go out? I feel like my heart has taken a blow. I lost a lot of weight when he left and then when i got my life sort of on track I started eating again, and not good and gained it all back. Ugh. I just feel lost right now.

Yes, my H is home again. Yes, I never thought I would be here today, Yes I have made huge strides and changes in my life, Yes I want this more than anything.

But..I want my husband to walk in the door after work and hug and kiss me like we have for 5 years, and last night he came home, sat at the kitchen table and waited for supper to be ready. I don't like this, I don't like feeling like this. I just need some help on how to go about getting out of this now that I have went backwards.