Dburt, I think you are correct about the fog. As the day goes on I find myself more and more depressed. I know I have to pull myself up soon though. I have to put up the front in the presence of my wife. Somedays it is easy, somedays it is hard. This has been a hard day. Maybe tommorrow will be better. I know I failed myself last night, even by my own standards. At a minimum, if I were to be true to myself, I should have not gotten undetached. It just confirmed our old pattern of relating. I should have had more control over myself and the converation/argument and my role in it. I remember reading that we often feel the worst before we reach a new platuea. I hope that is the case. I know there are those who have had it worse and recovered. I miss the presence of a woman in my life. I miss being smiled at lovingly and knowingly. I miss being spoken to in a soft tone while looking into loving eyes. I miss my wife. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself right now. I will heal. I hope my marriage can too.
