Well let's see, Thanksgiving was uneventful. I think I mentioned earlier that she had the kids for a late lunch and I picked them up for dinner. She didn't join us or invite me to her Thanksgiving celebration. Oh well that's up to her. I invited her to my dinner and she politely declined. After dinner I dropped them back off at her sister's place.
That Friday, I picked her and the kids up to go and check out the dinosaur exhibit we have in town. She seemed pretty blah, so I tried to keep everything light. There were times where she came out of her "fog" but then went right back into it.
After I dropped her and the kids back off at her sister's place, I went to pick up my female friend and she stayed over at my place till Sunday. Nothing happened between the two of us and I was working most of the time, but I enjoyed having someone at home again who wanted to be there for me.
Everything with my friend has been going very well. In fact, a little too well. I can tell she'd like a little more of a commitment which I just can't give her right now as much as I'd like to. When I have my kids, they ask me to pray that Mom comes home and that we're one big happy family again.
I totally still wish that, but don't know how long she's going to be in her "fog". And now that I have this friend who is essentially the perfect person for my sitch and me, I really have to make some tough decisions soon.
My friend even came over to my place yesterday to drop off dinner for me since she knew I was working late. I can't even remember when the last time was that my W did something like that.
So do I continue to fight and stand for my M or do I go with this good person I have right now? HMMMMMM.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
