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So...yesterday was a good day. My son dropped me off cuz it's an hour away. I tried calling him from 11:30-12:30 and he didn't answer any of my calls not even his blackberry (which is always on him) anyway...

H finally called when I was getting out of the car and I was really mad but I bit my tongue and acted like I didn't care he didn't call me back. He was being nice (calling me a pet name) oh brother...then I proceeded to cut off the conversation as I was busy and say, "ok well I'm gonna go now" and he said, "are you brushing me off?" i loved it

He text me I'm out at 4 do you wanna have drinks at (gave me two places) and I text back the initials of the place - no like yeah, that'd be fun crap I kept it short and whatever

I met him he was waiting for me by the front door and opened it for me - gave me a kiss on the cheek. We had a beer at the bar and we talked he was being himself - no weirdness no reservations no nothing - just being him - I was waiting for him to say one thing to piss me off and he didn't! I had you guys(men) in the back of my mind saying, "take interest in his conversation" (it was about work as usual) so I did.

We got in my car (which he drove to work) and my cd was kinda loud when he turned the engine on. I laughed and said, "ah listening to my stuff huh? you're gay" he laughed. I listen to techno dance stuff. He had had my blouse in the car so I changed on the way there - just took off my hoodie and made sure he noticed my cute black bra When we parked and got out he went to hold my hand (i did say oh, now you wanna hold my hand huh?) lol sorry I couldn't help it. He opened door was a complete gentleman. This is my H not the as of late jerk.

The evening was fine - no weirdness or dumb small talk just real us. Remember he is a big talker so yeah he was but didn't ignore me at the table. We came home right to bed and had some fun (hadn't had fun in 2 weeks!) that's a long time for me!

So guys..I know my jerk is still in there somewhere but I am going to continue to work on myself. Let's see what my dear H has in store for me these next few days.