I don't want a divorce. but i didn't know if I filed for one if she would have a change in heart.
forgive me what is "GALing" ?
Go back and reread the Divorce Remedy and put some of the tools she talks about to use in your own situation.
You say you haven't talked to her since November 18th - why? Did she ask you to completely stop contacting her? It seems to me that you've gone from one extreme (constantly calling and pleading with her) to another extreme (not contacting her in over 2 weeks). Perhaps you should try aiming somewhere in the middle. I don't see where your situation warrants going completely dark at this point. Food for thought at least.